"At this point in my life..."

From the beautiful and soulful mouth of Tracy Chapman. Thank you, Mama and Papa for introducing me to her work.

Maybe half of this somg...and more...is true for me right now. All I know is that I cannot seem to stop listening to it. Enough so that I felt compelled to look up the lyrics to make sure that I fully understood them to the extent that I am able right now...

I think that maybe I am not doing the best that I can, though... That needs to change.

"Done so many things wrong
I don't know if I can do right
Oh I...oh I
Done so many things wrong
I don't know if I can do right...

At this point in my life
I've done so many things wrong...
I don't know if I can do right
If you put your trust in me
I hope I won't let you down
If you give me a chance
I'll try

You see it's been hard road
The road I'm traveling on
And if I take your hand
I might lead you down the path to ruin
I've had a hard life
Just saying so you understand
Oh that right now
Right now I'm doing the best that I can
At this point in my life

At this point in my life
Though I've mostly walked in the shadows
I'm still searching for the light
Won't you put your faith in me
We both know that's what matters
If you give me a chance
I'll try

You see, I've been climbing stairs
But mostly stumbling down.
I've been reaching high
But always losing ground
You see I've conquered hills
But I still have mountains to climb
oh and right now, right now
I'm doing the best I can
At this point in my life.

Before we take a step
Before we walk down that path
Before I make any promises
Before you have regrets
Before we talk commitment
Let me tell you of my past
All I've seen and all I've done
The things I'd like to forget
At this point in my life

At this point in my life
I'd like to live as if only love mattered
As if redemption was in sight
As if the search to live honestly
Is all that anyone needs
No matter if you find it

You see when I've touched the sky
The earth's gravity has pulled me down
But now I've reconciled
That in this world birds and angels get the wings to fly
If you can believe in this heart of mine
Oh if you can give it a try
Then I'll reach inside
And find and give you all the sweetness that I have
Oh at this point in my life
At this point in my life"